a letter

with a tattered and cold heart, you whisper,
"bring me some food and your love."
it was always hard to understand you
& your desires.
you scare me
you frighten me to near death.
you pain inflicting-monster!
i could only wish for you
to DISAPPEAR.
disappear into nothing...
into something i cannot see.
i no longer want to breathe
the same air you take in
i no longer want to hear you
& your stupid little laughs
i no longer wish to be part of your games
those games that i always seemed to
fall into, where the holes i always saw
but i normally would drown in your blood anyway.
your stupid nonsense
you'd speak in my ear.

do you remember that night?
that night you were here
in my bed, in my thoughts and dreams?
you stayed near me
& swore yourself to me
you swore to love me
but you didn't.
you didn't care.
at all.
i just want to forget that night.
i want to forget you were there...
in my life
in my everything.
you took over
& then broke my fragile heart into
a thousand pieces
never cared to pick them up.
you never once thought
that maybe i would appreciate it
or that maybe i would still care for you the slightest.
but you didn't pick them up.
did you?
no.

and so you made me weep,
you made me bleed a million tears
through my translucent eyes
and broke my trust
my heart
and my....everything else.

so can you really say again,
"bring me some food and your love"?

goodbye, forever and ever and ever.

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